Dear readers, I pray you won’t find yourself in a situation where a woman would turn you against your friends and family members because that explains my present situation. Now I truly understand why a lot of people say love is blind. For me, it was blind, but now I can see clearly. The storm has settled, and my vision has never been this clear. The only problem is that I never got to know this in time to save me from all the headaches and heartaches has Titi caused me. Titi was not my first love, and only God could actually
reveal the reason why I did all I did without considering he implication.
How could I have been so blind that I
refused to heed the warnings of my friends and family members? I mean I did everything for that woman without holding back. When I first met Titi, it was as if I had seen an angel; she was looking so radiant, and my desire was to make her my woman for life.
Though, it took me a long time to finally get her approval; yet the wait was worth it. I thought that was my bus stop; finally a woman to call my own. I thought I had found a woman to help me build my home and family; but I was stupidly wrong in the end. I shared all my secrets with Titi, and did not keep anything away from her. There was nothing she didn’t know about me including my salary. Despite the fact that she was working and earning a reasonable salary, I was still responsible for buying her everything including toothpaste, underwear, sanitary pads, and virtually everything you could think of. Anyone who dared to ask me to take things easy or deal wisely with Titi became an enemy. It even got to a point when I saw my mom as someone who didn’t want me to get married all because she voiced out her opinions about a woman she felt was not godly enough. The thing is I wasn’t just giving to Titi because I wanted to; I gave her because she was always asking. I didn’t see anything wrong in buying her virtually everything she needed despite the fact that she was also working. On the other hand, I wasn’t looking as attractive as men who were working and earning reasonable salaries. I was earning fat salary, but living the life of a pauper because all my earnings were going into taking care of my girlfriend. Titi and I dated for about 5 years, and I can only recall getting only one or two Christmas or birthday gift from her. Gradually, I started losing my good friends. My friends were buying lands and building houses, and some were buying cars and establishing businesses; but on my part, nothing tangible was happening. Meanwhile, Titi had moved in with me, and we were living as couples even without being married. I was a little bit concerned that my friends and family members were no longer coming to visit me; but I didn’t see anything wrong with it until I lost my job. I lost my job not because I was involved in any criminal activity or fraud; my company asked us to go because they were no longer making profits. After collecting my pay-off from the company I worked for, I got home and explained everything to my girlfriend. She was sad, and even encouraged me by saying that God will definitely open another door for me. Meanwhile, she never saw anything wrong in me buying all her personals because she never stopped or suggested that I stopped buying them just to save some money until another job would come. I didn’t complain since I knew I was going to get another sooner or later. Days turned into weeks, and weeks into months; yet no job came my way. I was getting frustrated because I could no longer keep up with my responsibilities. To make matters worse, Titi was not giving me all the support I needed. We had arguments on so many occasions, and she called me names; labelling me a lazy man who only sits at home to idle away while she goes out to work. My bills were piling up, and my rent was then two months away from expiring. My caretaker sent me a reminder via an official letter, which I also showed to Titi. She didn’t say a single word the very first time I told her; only for her to wake me up later that night to ask what my plans are especially concerning the rent and other bills. I thought she wanted to help me out so we could clear the rent, pay some bills, and at least stock the kitchen with foodstuffs; but I was wrong. After the chat we had that night, she said she would see what she could do when she got back from work the next day.
Dear readers, it’s been 3 months, and 1 week since Titi made that promise; and that is not the problem. The problem is that it’s been 3 months and exactly 1 week since I last saw Titi. I got a text from her the very day she left my house, and the text or sms reads: “I don’t think I can continue to live a life that offers me no hope of a better tomorrow; after all, your friends and family never wanted me in the first place.” She also sent another one that reads: “I have decided to move on with my life, and I advice you also do the same.”
Today, I am still trying to mend fences, and reach out to people I hurt during the course of my stupidity
N.B
Got these from a reader oh.. didnt happen to me...
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